This song is about a really bad relationship.  It was mentally, emotionally, and physically abusive, drugs involved, and it really changed who I was for the worse, for a long time.  I became codependent and accepted and craved really really intense drama and chaos.  I let myself get treated like absolute shit.  Because of that, I had the opportunity to rebuild myself into someone I could admire, love, and be proud of.  It wasn’t because of that trauma that I am who I am today, I did the hard work so I get the credit!   But the trauma did give me the opportunity to realize what I will and will not accept in my life.  It did shape the way I saw the world, and made me ultra-aware of toxic people, which I am so thankful for.  If you are in a bad relationship and need to get out, please talk to someone.  https://www.betterhelp.com/ offers therapy right from your phone via texting or video chats.