It has been a dream of mine ever since I realized I had half a decent singing voice, to be a musician. To make that my purpose, my career, my life. It really is so exciting especially as a little kid to find something that you’re good at. Teenage years rolled around and let’s be honest, kids are fricken mean. A couple critiques of my voice that no one asked for later, I retracted into my shell of self-consciousness. Once I met my husband, who was a pop star in the early 2000’s and signed to UNIVERSAL RECORDS with his band, Jettingham, the world of music came back to me. He was in some local bands, and eventually I wormed my way in, and learned how to play the bass so I could live that music life with him. Once that band ran its course, I started an acoustic duo with a very beautiful and talented friend, Brittany. We played a handful of shows and it was SO MUCH FUN. I kept having babies in between all of this, and I chose to put music on the back burner for a while until the babes got older. It wasn’t until this last baby I had *at home with a midwife, a doula, my hubby and kiddos, and in a birthing tub, that I realized the time is now. I need fuel for my soul and that was music. Around the one year mark after baby #5, I decided to start writing. My first song was about a friend’s experience meeting a girl, and I thought it was such a cute story I had to write about it. I sat down to think about the story, and wrote every word in my car in about five minutes. That song is called The Day I Met Grace. I showed it to my husband and he was so insanely supportive and told me how amazing it was, and that I should write more. So I did, and songs just started pouring out of me. I opened the flood gates and each one was better than the last. I started out writing about my experiences on the Autism spectrum, and then moving through the emotions of having a partner with a chronic illness, the depression that seeps in during wintertime as a stay-at-home mom with a new baby fueled a few songs like No Pain, Don’t Love Me, and Don’t Test Me, and then…healing started to happen. I started realizing I don’t want to write only sad songs, there must be something good I can write about. I believe that’s where Feel Something came in to play. And then Our Way, and Not Gonna Panic, Three Minutes Away, and Enemy all within a couple weeks were written so fast! After that a wave of self-love was washing over me and I wrote Authenticity, She, and Can I Hold You. This last week I have written three and a half songs! It’s really the most incredible feeling to be doing what I love every day. I’ve been playing out at local bars and restaurants and that has been terrifying but really an amazing feeling that people out there recognize me as someone worthwhile to listen to!
My Songwriting Journey
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